Okay, here it goes. My name is Arika, I am 21 years old, and currently living in Germany, and learn German as well. I've been staying in Germany for like 6-7 Months, and I've done my first German Test few weeks ago, and just got the result yesterday. I am freaking happy because, I didn't think I'd get perfect notes on the Oral Test, the worst part of my ability in speaking German is speaking, so hahaha. So, the result was sehr gut bestanden that means, I got very good note on this test, and from the listening comprehension, I also got a hundred percent perfect note. Just from the writing comprehension I got like less 4 note from the perfect point, so I would say it's totally okay and I am very happy that I could made this true, yeah for at least I proof myself, that I'll get anything I want, but only with hard efforts, definitely.
And so here I am, happy with my life, and just enjoyed the sudden great weather that come around lately. Sunny, sunny day, even though it's still cold as hell, no I mean freaking cold and windy, I still enjoy these all.
So my current life has been great, and I've been doing good with all of this move on stuffs and, try to get more loosen up and just relaxed. I've been really doing great for now, I am happy, and gaining more and more weight, I just don't really care how do I look, or so ever, I'm just literally happy, even though sometimes I miss my family a lot, that I just couldn't explain how I feel.
And apparently, I got certain things that I currently do all of the time, I just wanna tell you this, because I feel a bit proud of myself that I passed all of these through. So I made myself happy to celebrate it with myself with just stay to keep on telling myself that I can do this, and that.
So, I currently reading The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, so far this book is pretty great, and maybe plus because I read it on original version in English.
And I should tell you guys, I am a book-worm for sure, and I am a bit freak when it comes to books, I read and I put on post-it on every single wisest word written on the book, so I'll type some more words that I found on this book.
- "As you sow, so shall you reap". "My life was in ruins. For the next six years I was quite sceptical about anything to do with mysticism. During this time in spiritual exile, I learned many important things : that we only accept the truth after we have fist wholeheartedly rejected it; that we mustn't run away from our own destiny; and that the hand of God is firm, but infinitely generous."
- "What's the world's greatest lie?" ~ "It's this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our life become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie."
- The old man pointed to a baker standing in his shop window at one corner of the plaza. "When he was a child, that man wanted to travel, too. But he decided first to buy his bakery and put some money aside. When he's old man, he's going to spend a month in Africa. He never realized that people are capable, at any time in their lives, of doing what they dream of."
- "Because you're trying to realize your destiny, and you are at your point where you're about to give it all up."
- "If you start out by promising what you don't even have yet, you'll lose your desire to work toward getting it."
- "The principle of favorability . When you play cards at first time, you're almost sure to win. Beginner's luck." "Why is that?". "Because there is a force that wants you to realize your destiny; it whets your appetite with a taste of success."
I do really think those words are great, they courage me also to do and to chase everything I really want, so for this current time, I do think that reading The Alchemist is a perfect choice, considering I am now like in the process of getting something I really wanted for my whole life.
I refused to get bored of my life. I know sometimes it getting static like you don't have any idea what you should do with your life and something like that. Well sometimes boredom attacks, but I am this kinda person who's always looking forward to anything to do to stay out from the boreness. I am happy that I move my ass of from the gloomiest days I ever experienced back then, to be like this, right now. I am happy to finally called mature and no longer youth. My mom let me to do anything and to get anything I want, included letting me to have full decision of my study, and I'm happy about this. I am satisfied at the end, that I got my parents's trust back, after all I've done with my life, like almost getting dropped outta school, like hanging around at club, tried to smoke since I was in Junior High School, having fun for all the time, yeah just sort of usual stuffs those my parents clearly hate it. I failed on stuffs not just for once or twice, I failed myself of taking care my little boutique that me and my sister opened it last year. I know I could do so much better, I know I'm totally married with money, I can say, I am a good money maker also great money waster. But it doesn't really matter for me, failure is a common thing that we should always experienced, and lessons learned. I really know what I really want this time, and I already promised myself to do this time right.
So, I'll keep myself on chasing everything that I wanted most, and try to love myself more, because I think, that when you're trying so hard on focusing to change what you are to be better person, that won't work. You have to try to love yourself more and more, because when you love yourself better than anyone, you would know what you should do with your life, and how to make the perfect decision for anything related on yourself. The treasure is not out of yourself, it stays instead in your heart and also in your mind.
You know, guys. When you're still keep talking and issuing yourself with your love life, I should say you're so 1000 late. Be real, guys, get a life. I know I am literally capable on doing anything I wan't, because I know I'm not dumb, and I won't really let myself be in those gloomy fucking days, just because of breaking up and heart-breaking stuffs. It's just so not me, to have this kind of issue for the whole sake of time. So I just wanna be real with my life. They could've said, I am a heart breaker, well it's pretty much true, because I already break mine, since like months ago, and now I don't really care on anything of everything related to love, because I know when something had broken, it's just already gone. Just can't be normal, or back to really what it were. So, I won't break mine, like twice. And I am happy to find out that, I am clearly smart to stay away from this issue.
Well, this post is quiet telling you to keep on chasing everything you wanted, and just try to love yourself more and more, and it's just great for myself, at the same time to read The Alchemist as well. It's a great book, I'll post my review later on when I finished it.
P.S : I currently in love with 3 Songs which are always stayed on my playlist for like the whole week. First is Carla Bruni ~ Le Ciel Dans uns Chambre, second is Augustana with ~ Boston, and third is always Duffy ~ Warwick Avenue.
P.S.S : I colored my hair last week, and it was literally horrible! But gladly it's now normal!
I'm glad that I look normal right now. XD LOL.
Heidelberg, Wednesday, March 10 2010.