now, i'm sitting here, thinking bout you.

there's no shame on being crazy, depending on how you take these words I'm paraphrasing, this relationship we're staging.

though I tored my dresses and you stained your shirt, but it was nice that day.
Oh the way it was so worthed.

so worth for being around with YOU again, Mr. Dimitri. I miss you, you know.

16th September 2009 09:07 (De Time)

  • What Just Made Me Cried This Morning

  • Rizky Indrameikha Sugianto (9/15/2009 10: 55:43 AM): Lin
  • Rizky Indrameikha Sugianto (9/15/2009 10: 55:48 AM): Lg apa?
  • Rizky Indrameikha Sugianto (9/15/2009 10: 56:08 AM): Kita udah di batu, lg dirumah atas
  • Arika Indra (9/15/2009 10: 56:20 AM): wah asiknya
  • Arika Indra (9/15/2009 10: 56:35 AM): lg bikin blog sama cari2 info buat kuliah disin
  • Arika Indra (9/15/2009 10: 56:38 AM): hehheee
  • Arika Indra (9/15/2009 10: 56:45 AM): ada kans buat aku kuliah disini, doain yah?
  • Rizky Indrameikha Sugianto (9/15/2009 10: 56:46 AM): Ga enak ya klo ga ngumpul smua

  • A simple words from my sister. Bikin pertahanan gw hancur seketika.
  • "Rizky Indrameikha Sugianto (9/15/2009 10: 56:46 AM): Ga enak ya klo ga ngumpul smua"
  • padahal gw cuma 2 kali menangis disini, well.. gw capek berpura - pura kuat juga. gw kangen sekali sama mereka. keluarga dan pacar gw : ( kangen sekali..

Life Quotes for Today :D


There are two means of refuge from the miseries of life: music and cats.


Ethics cannot be based upon our obligations toward [people], but they are complete and natural only when we feel this Reverence for Life and the desire to have compassion for and to help all creatures insofar as it is in our power. I think that this ethic will become more and more recognized because of its great naturalness and because it is the foundation of a true humanism toward which we must strive if our culture is to become truly ethical.


Ethics, too, are nothing but reverence for life. This is what gives me the fundamental principle of morality, namely, that good consists in maintaining, promoting, and enhancing life, and that destroying, injuring, and limiting life are evil.

Civilization and Ethics, 1949


Reverence for Life affords me my fundamental principle of morality, namely, that good consists in maintaining, assisting, and enhancing life and that to destroy, harm, or to hinder life is evil. Affirmation of the world -- that is affirmation of the will to live, which appears in phenomenal forms all around me -- is only possible for me in that I give myself out for other life.

Source : Life Quotes


this post was just made me speechless.. miss you neng :(

Potluck - Bandung June '09

Nana. Kangen gw.

astaga sudah lama sekali saya tidak menulis. saya rindu setiap hela nafas dan tangis yang saya buat saat saya menghayati setiap huruf yang ditulis. saya rindu lelahnya kedua mata saat saya memeriksa setiap ejaan tulisan, memastikan semuanya ditulis dengan benar, dengan cara yang memang sesuai dengan apa yang saya ingin jadikan dalam tulisan saya.

malam ini, tidak ada yang begitu spesial dengan diri saya hingga membuat saya ingin menulis. bahkan tidak ada kegelisahan biasa yang selalu menjadikan inspirasi mengalir deras. bukan itu. kali ini saya sama sekali tidak ingin menulis apapun menyentuh kegelisahan.

indeed, malam ini saya bahagia.

hal sederhana seperti membuka blog seorang teman, dan mendengarkan lisa ono, ternyata sudah cukup untuk membayar kekosongan jiwa yang dirasakan belakangan ini. tidak berlebihan, namun mendadak semua terasa begitu tenang, begitu penuh harapan.

Nana, teman yang bisa saya anggap sahabat hanya dengan satu kali pertemuan.

beberapa percakapan di messenger, dan beberapa lemparan semangat, dari belahan dunia yang berbeda.

entah dengan cara apa saya bisa merasa menyayanginya seperti saudara perempuan sendiri.

entah dengan cara bagaimana saya ikut senang melihatnya senang. atau setidaknya melihat senyum senangnya di foto dengan background Paris yang selama ini saya lihat di majalah.

dan entah mengapa, melihatnya mewujudkan impiannya membuat saya yakin dengan harapan yang juga ingin saya wujudkan.

bahkan saya tidak tahu apa yang berusaha saya sampaikan dalam tulisan ini.

kali ini, saya hanya ingin menulis dan menumpahkan segalanya.

- Dwi Ajeng Asmarandhany -

P.S : gw juga kangen banget sama lo, Neng. I miss you quite terribly :( taun depan harus sering ketemuan ya?


My Mind Map

The sentence above. I always set my mind to this sentence since I was a teenager. I always wanted to travel around the world, I set my mind and keep telling to myself that, if I want it, then I have to go for it. So, I write this proudly, that I'm currently in Europe, learning a better German language. But the thing is, I get what I always wanted. Which means, when you keep telling yourself that you can go for and get it, then it is.

I was in this cuty Strassbourg - France. Travelers are chatting around me; the usual conversation about where they came from and where they’re going next. Down on the beach, surfers are catching the last waves of the day and men driving horse-drawn carts haul firewood into town. In many ways this is an idyllic scene, but to be honest, for a while today I was feeling a bit tired and jaded about travel. When you’re on the road too long the spark of newness fades, and travel can feel like a long, pointless slog, a detour from loved ones and from life.

Then I started reading the quotes you’ll find below. Some made me laugh. Some made me wince.

But all of them rang true, and reminded me of why I travel: to learn and grow, to challenge myself, stretch my limits and foster an appreciation of both the world at large and the chair waiting in front of the woodstove back home.

Freiburg - Germany August '09

1. “Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry, and narrow-mindedness.” –Mark Twain

Basel - Swiss Aug'09

2. “The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page.” – St. Augustine

Rhein River - Basel - Swiss Aug '09

3. “There are no foreign lands. It is the traveler only who is foreign.” – Robert Louis Stevenson

Frankfurt - Germany Sept '09

4. “The use of traveling is to regulate imagination by reality, and instead of thinking how things may be, to see them as they are.” –Samuel Johnson

Heidelberg - Germany Aug '09

5. “All the pathos and irony of leaving one’s youth behind is thus implicit in every joyous moment of travel: one knows that the first joy can never be recovered, and the wise traveler learns not to repeat successes but tries new places all the time.” – Paul Fussell

Bismarckplatz - Heidelberg - Germany ' Aug09

6. “Our battered suitcases were piled on the sidewalk again; we had longer ways to go. But no matter, the road is life.” – Jack Kerouac

Strasbourg - France Sept '09

7. “He who does not travel does not know the value of men.” – Moorish proverb

Dom - Strasbourg - France '09

8. “People travel to faraway places to watch, in fascination, the kind of people they ignore at home.” – Dagobert D. Runes

Strasbourg is a romantic place. Indeed :)

9. “A journey is like marriage. The certain way to be wrong is to think you control it.” – John Steinbeck


Being alone and normal.
I'm leaving my comfortable zone.
I try to forget how much being spoiled.
and alone and normal.

It's really been a while since I didn't post anything on my mind then put them into words. Really been a while. and I'm literally losing my words. Since the wandering days are over and all the gloomiest part is left behind apart. I don't really notice that it's hard for me to crawl beneath loneliness. Now the sickened life crisis has actually come to an end, and I have to be (one more time) grateful for it.

I'm alone and I'm normal.

What makes me alone and normal is, in 3 weeks so for more, I have to be alone in doing everything. It sucks me when something has to do and only can do with a survival. I'm alone, normal, but not really a survivor, so please leave me alone with that.
I'm keeping a good works here, I'm building a new life here. I cried at least just twice, and the hardest part is not, home sicking or else. It's just me, I realized that It's just something we can deal about being far away from home, family and friends, that can be controlled by mind. And that's not the biggest part among all. The thing we have to really deal with is, How to control the feelings. But then again I'm alone, normal and nobody can help me, but me.

It's just normal being away, it's too normal.

It's just the matter of time and how can you adapt and accept it.

But my question is this. How in the world, can we control our mind dealing with these?
This not really some life crisis. This just a process. But HOW TO CONTROL them.

I am alone, normal, and have thoughts.
So I put my thoughts in to words, I'm not hoping for much (solution) I'm just keeping myself of being normal. Just like me in the past months.
Oh yes, It's really been a while since... the sickened life crisis past away.
I'm good for now.

And now, heeeem.. how i really miss my mom's sambel ulek.

and just for now, I really have to deal with the survival stuffs, oh and that's not really hard when you got something inside of you, and you know that you're so much better of doing that.

I know I'm alone, and trying so hard being normal, but the thing is..i've got so much questions dancing in my head, and the hardest part to answer how to control my mind is, keeping dancing away in my head.


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